Mini Hiatus

Hey boys! (and gals - not sure who is reading this):

I haven't been around for a while, but I've just been really busy. I'm going to busy for the next couple weeks. Oh man, even as I write these few sentences I realize how much I like writing this blog. I'm hoping that I'll get a nice new post in soon. Nothing overly exciting has happened to me lately. I went clubbing last Saturday and checked out a lot of guys - and I think I may have been getting some looks too. Someone may have even flirted with me - but couldn't really do much as I was with all my friends (and yup, they still don't know about me). Anyway, it was a great, drunken, messy time - with limited hangover!

I have to get to bed, but if you're bored check out these sexy beach boy images.

I'll be thinking of those as I go to sleep tonight.

Hope everyone is doing well out there and getting through this winter.

All signs point to homo...

I suppose I was always going to find out who I am. But, for reasons unknown, I took the long route. I guess you could say that I was (am) a late bloomer. There were so many signs along the way that practically screamed "YOU ARE GAY, turn here for happiness" that I ignored or pretended not to see.

Here are some of the signs:

1. Around 5 years old: I was going "swimming" in a kiddy pool, and was afraid to take off my shirt because I was nervous what the other guys would think. Seriously, I can remember being a gay five year old - can't believe I remember this.
2. Locker room in high school: don't get me started how hard it was showering with all the guys.
3. When I was just hitting puberty, my best friend would sleep over and turn on the tv late at night. He would try to get me to watch the naked women on certain late night channels, and I would just turn over and go to sleep.
4. Still a teenager: always wishing to see more male nudity than female during late night softcore porn. Life just wasn't fair before the internet.
   
5. Going to the beach every summer and trying to hide the fact that I'm looking at all the attractive men.
6. Here's the kicker: Lack of relationships. I never went on dates with girls and had very few relationships. The last relationship was a result of me trying to convince myself I liked girls - and you all can guess how well that went.

Anyway, there you have it - six signs. Why was I so clueless? I guess you live and learn.

Starbucks Hottie

Hi again! Before I catch some zzzz's, I just want to tell you who I saw tonight...

I went to Starbucks (surprise, surprise) and saw the hottie I have talked about previously . He is so sexy! He gave my friend and I our drinks and my friend said thank-you...and I couldn't say anything. Why do I get so awkward around cute guys? I can't tell if he's gay or not. He had a couple rings on his fingers, but let's not go stereotyping now. This Starbucks is hiring and I think I should apply. To be continued...hopefully...

Getting bored...

So I'm just sitting at my computer, chatting, e-mailing, facebooking, downloading, etc. This is my daytime life as of late (I'm so exciting, aren't I?). I haven't been working for the past couple months and I'm waiting to hear back from school (I think I've mentioned this before) so my life is not very complicated at the moment. This was all good until recently. Now I'm just bored.

I am usually busy in the evenings hanging out with family, going out to dinner/movies/for coffee, and just relaxing with friends, but from the hours of 11am to 6pm I don't do a whole lot.

I'm totally addicted to Brothers and Sisters at the moment and I have a few episodes to go before I'm all caught up. Then I think I'll read a book. I went to the book store today, but the book I wanted was $30 so I think I'll order it online. I guess I shouldn't complain as I'm sure life will get a lot busier in the coming months. Training for my 1/2 marathon starts in a couple weeks so that will keep me a little busier.

Well back to Brothers and Sisters - it can be very intense at the moment and makes me think how good I have it in life compared to these characters with their numerous problems. I love the real gay story line in the show - it's a refreshing change from Queer as Folk or Will & Grace, as also pointed out by G.

My chill day

Hey everyone!

This is going to be a quick post as I'm getting ready to go for drinks and wings with my close friends. I'm in better spirits today for some reason, even though it is f'in COLD where I live. It's -20 Celsius with the windchill! I started my day with a Starbucks - extra hot, Skinny Cinnamon Dolce. The extra hot refers to both the drink and the boy serving me...mmmmm. Seriously, Starbucks seems to perfectly combine my loves of caffeinated beverages and hot boys.

As for the rest of my day, I watched 4 episodes of Brothers and Sisters. My friend recently suggested it and so I downloaded the first season last night. It is actually really good. It's very drama filled, but what I like about it is that it portrays a dysfunctional family that is still very close. To give you an idea of the storyline, it's about a family's troubles after their dad dies and leaves them with a lot of headaches to clean up. One of the son's is a lawyer who happens to be gay and his storyline is really interesting. Anyway, so far ... so good!

I'll leave you with the song: "Easier to Lie" by Aqualung. It was playing at the end of the third episode of Brothers and Sisters and I thought it spoke a lot of truth about hardships in a person's life.

If I was straight...

So, truth be told, I have two girl crushes (in a totally 'If I was straight' kind of way). I just find these girls gorgeous and if they wanted to seduce me I don't know if I could hold back:). Anyway, as I was channel surfing in the wee hours of Monday morning, I came across the 20 sexiest males and females of 2007 (I think it was on MTV). As fate would have it, my top pics were among the finalists.

First, Scarlet Johanson was among the top 5 - I just find her classically beautiful, and no matter what anyone says I think she is a great actress. Match Point has to be one of my all time favourite movies - Jonathon Reese Myers ain't so bad in the film either.

Second, Rihanna stole the spotlight at the #1 sexiest woman of 2007. Like c'mon, she's pretty hot don't ya think?

Ok, so now you might be thinking, what's this guy's deal? Why is he posting pics of hot girls on his gay blog? Well, I don't want to disappoint you, but I will keep you in suspense as to who won the title of sexiest man of 2007; click HERE to find out - you won't be disappointed. He's uber hot, so talented, and did I say that I find him so sexy? Enjoy!

Out of Commission

Well this weekend totally sucked. Saturday night I became incredibly ill with the flu. I swear I don't even remember the last time I have been this under the weather. I was really looking forward to doing some snowboarding on Sunday but instead spent the day on the couch, sipping ginger-ale and watching movies from the 50's. I promised myself that I would board a lot this winter and so far I've only been once. I was really excited to go this weekend and then the flu totally betch slapped me.

I am (for the most part) recovered now and will hopefully be back to 100% tomorrow. I've realized that I need to be more active with this blog thing because when I am, I feel better. I've been putting this whole 'who I really am' on the back burner the past couple of weeks. I think I keep making excuses for not advancing in this whole coming out process. For example, I tell myself that once school applications are completed or once I find a job, that I can focus on coming out. I really want to tell my sister, but she is going through some stuff in her life and I think that maybe I should wait until she deals with her own issues. I realize that these are excuses, yet am unable to grow the balls to change my situation. Damn.

Maybe I'm just emotional right now. I found myself tearing up in 3:10 to Yuma on Sunday when watching it with my family. I'm not really a fan of Westerns and I NEVER cry in movies, but I think my weakened bodily state played a factor. As an aside, I recommend watching the movie - it has Russell Crowe and Christian Bale, and overall it wasn't bad.

Anyway, I want you all to know that I really am a fun person. In "real" life I'm always laughing and joking around and I try not to take things that seriously. I guess this blog just gives me a place to vent and talk about some serious personal stuff going on in my life. Here's to hoping for a good week. I promise more posts will be on their way soon!